Kevin V. Thomas

Growing up, I was arguably the poster child of every Indian household. I excelled in academics, won cultural competitions, was popular among my peers and abstained from bad habits and societal vices. I took pride in having a strong moral compass. When I was 16, I spiraled into an existentialist crisis, resulting in inner conflicts around life’s meaning and death’s inevitability. Once, while getting off the local train, I heard a shriek. Turning around, I saw that a man had fallen under the train and lost his hand. I remember feeling death’s proximity and murmuring “Why am I doing what I’m doing?” I felt like a headless chicken frantically scurrying within the confines of society’s indoctrinated maze. In my 2nd year of college, a friend had explained the doctrines of grace to me. I remember feeling both intense fear and joy at the same time. The sovereignty of God staggered me. A good Christian community and a plethora of online resources greatly influenced me. Over months immersed in study, heartfelt contemplation, and observation, the Lord graciously & actively regenerated my passive being. It was solely through the piercing illumination of God’s boundless grace that the truth of justification through faith in Christ was unveiled to me. Ever since then, I have only hoped to be spent for the Lord, my Saviour.