Forgiveness With God

Does anyone really grasp the weight of sin as God sees it? Is Christ the Mediator the only One God can hear? Is God’s forgiveness possible without a Just Payment? Why do we tend to be lenient on our own sin? What does ‘feared’ mean as it pertains to God? Is repentance in our hands or is that too a gift? What is our starting point in God’s eyes if Christ paid our debt? What does it mean that Christ ‘waited’ on the Father?